Perseverance & Tantrums...
Wednesday, March 7, 2012 at 12:23PM With a post title like that, you know this is going to be a little deep. I won't bore you with the details of the scene I made Friday in my studio while I was painting but suffice it to say it closely resembled a child's temper tantrum. If you are a creative person, then you know all too well at times we "hit the wall" or reach a barrier that seems impossible to get through or over.
I've been taking an on-line course with Flora Bowley called Bloom True. It is very much out of my comfort zone but I have such a deep desire to learn and create that I knew this was the class for me; that was until last Friday. Seriously, Flora had been mentioning throughout the course that there would be times when we would be emotionally affected by the process. Up to that point, I was cruising along, trusting the process and feeling no pain. She couldn't possibly have been speaking to me...I must be the exception. I had an awesome time painting the day before and was anxious to get in the studio on Friday to paint the next lesson.
As I mentioned before, no details but it didn't go well! Today, I realize that what happened Friday was part of the process and brings me further along to understanding myself and how I create and express myself. I will have more days like Friday but in the big picture, far more will be thrilling and productive and as I move along this journey, I will make magic happen and each time it will get easier and easier.
When you discover what you fear most, run towards it!
Have a blessed day!
Peeks of my workshop progress!
flora bowley, painting in painting
Reader Comments (12)
It is so hard to loosen up and be free. I think you did an amazing job!! I love these!! I admire Flora's art but simply can't afford her classes. I love the colors. Everything is great!!
I wanted to take that workshop soooo bad. I cant wait to see more of your work and hear what you are finding out about yourself!
I love what you are showing!!!! I so wanted to take Flora's class, but couldn't...looking forward to her book!!! Good for you for keeping with it and following your feelings into the painting process! :) love and blessings...Cathy
Roben~ i am taking BLOOM TRUE this summer!
thanks for sharing your authentic self.
Please keep going with this process. I LOVE the colors in the sneak peeks....so warm and gorgeous!! Thanks for sharing. Can't wait to see them when you're done.
Ha! We are on the SAME boat, experiencing the same thing! TFS!!!
I think you will be happy with your finished painting. I took a class with Flora 2 years ago, having never really "painted" before. I ended up with 2 of the most beautiful pieces of art I have ever created. Sometimes I thought the process was nuts and frustrating and really,really hard but if you trust Flora and her purpose the results are amazing! I cannot wait to see your results.
Also want to say I love all of your work!
I'm loving your colors here. This looks like a class to seriously consider-it's a resolution of mine to take my first online class so I'm just checking into a few right now. I see this class will be offered in June again. Thanks for sharing.
I'm taking the class too but am very, very far behind. I'm sure when I get to the class session you are on....I will have a tantrum of my own :)
I absolutely love your work and though you left out the details, I can only imagine! It reminds me of the quote, "where you stumble is where your treasure lies..." which I probably trashed:) but I wish you much success with the workshop! What's the name of it, btw?
Oh my gosh! We must have been separated at birth. The same thing happened to me. I was totally cruising along in the course and then I had an awful frustrating day.i blogged about my experience and called it "Flora Frustration". Fortunately, the next day went better. I know it'll happen for you too. Your artwork is so lovely and fun!
From one frustrated Bloomer to another...I totally know what you mean. I shut down many times during the class, stuck and irritated with myself. I finally finished one of my paintings this week and gave the second one an overhaul. The sneak peeks look gorgeous and I can't wait to see more. Love all your other work also!